There was a very brief point in my life where I would jump to conclusions extremely fast and I was also extremely judgmental. Thankfully it didn’t last very long, but it still was a phase. At the time, I wasn’t as vocal as I am today. So, it was very unlikely that others would know what I was thinking, but the thoughts would run wild. I could be sitting in front of the nicest person in the world, and I would have the peel their life apart in my head. It was not ok, and in the end it left me feeling a bit lonely and separate from everyone.
Eventually, I sat down and asked myself why I was doing it. There was no justification. I could not come up with a reason as to why I would break everyone down in my mind. So, I made a deal with myself.
This deal was, in my mind, simple, but it would take some work. I guess it really wasn’t a deal, it was more like a goal to become better. I told myself that before I started thinking those judgmental thoughts and jumping to conclusion, I would pause. In that pause I would listen to everything someone had to say, I would put myself in their shoes, and I would not let myself get to the point that I was at before. It took some time, but eventually I got to where I wanted to be. I don’t jump to conclusions, and being judgmental isn’t a thing for me anymore.
I am used to be judged. It happens pretty much every day of my life. My family does it, the people I called friends do it, and strangers do it all the time. I have learned to let it go. My actions are mine. My hobbies are mine. My life is mine. I know what is truly going on, I know who I am, and I know what I want. I have learned to not let other people drive why I do what I do. I am my own person and they don’t run my life.
Becoming the way that I am not wasn’t an easy journey, but I did it. It would be nice for people to set aside their judgments and just live, but in this world, it’s basically impossible. If you have it in you to change, I highly recommend it. life becomes a little easier, and you feel a little freer.
Have a good one!
P.S. I apologize for my absence. I have been working extremely long shifts at work and preparing for a major occupational change. Sometimes with change, sacrifices must be made. Mine was time, but I will slowly be diving back in!